Ugly

You make me feel ugly
You make me feel undesired
And it is all undeserved

You make me feel unwanted
Hard to understand
How someone you love can suffocate you(rself)

Here all is cold
Here I am small
I wish I could find a way back
Inside you
But I've never felt so far

Here I am nothing
Here I am void

Wish I could make more
Of ourselves with you
But I've never been so far

Even when we hadn't met I felt you nearer
And always that we were about to meet

All my life, leading to this
But all that’s left now is ugly me

Here I am nothing
Here I am void

I wish I wasn't impatient
But every second feels like half a life
Without you

I wish I could feel it was a phase
I don't deserve this I don't deserve this I don't deserve this

Because I went too far and long
To be satisfied with nothing
Because strength doesn't always suffice
Clinging to broken halves of oneself

Growing empty
Socanyoufeelmefadingaway
Andsittheredoingnothing
NeedingmelessasIgo?

Here I am nothing
Here I am... void

(Old Skin.Veil song, early 2000s. About self-hatred, always misinterpreted. As usual.)