Hallucinogenic Deity

Eroded my perspective
Thin soul fed off me
Left me nothing to feed off myself

I've been
Absorbed by this hallucinogen
So I don't exist outside myself

Eroding my perception
Weak self chewed my core
Left me unattended to keep the beatings on

I've been
Molded out of recognition
I am only outside myself

Malleable
Until I break
Stretched to the brink

And just to think
There's no coming back
There's no beyond

Or it'll be lacking me -- as it had me in, with me, within me
Where does it lie now but in my Dreams?
Where does it lie now but in my Dreams?

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